Just why are things that I luv to do always not allowed?

 

M tapping my feet while sitting on a chair...or moving my feet left-right while lying on the bed...Pat says the voice: "Dont do that. Not Allowed!"

 

M going down the stairs, circling keys around my fingers...I turn around to hear: "Dont do that. Not Allowed!"

 

M whistling my way down the road, roaming here and there...i have to stop whistling at the voice "Dont do that. Not Allowed!"

 

M jobless. Have nothing to do. There is a pair of scissors on the table near me. i pick it up and start playing with it. (close it , open it). Hvae to put it down. Obviously, "Dont do that. Not Allowed!"

 

M jus bored. I put my elbows on the table and my head inside my hands. Surprise!!! "Dont do that. Not Allowed!"

 

M in a class. Obviously have nothing to do. Take out my cell phone, start playing snakes. thousand voices bombard me "Dont do that. Not Allowed!"

 

M Sleepy. Have to go. Want to sleep forever and ever. My alarm shrieks "Dont do that. Not Allowed!"

 

 

The only major fights in my life have happened within my household..n of course wid friends in bachpan...

But since the time i have understood friendship, i have never had a fight wid any friend....tiffs n all happen, little misunderstandings here n there....but never a big issue....So much so that i have never fought with even my bestest of friend (since people say that fights bring friends closer, i thnk i shud go n have a major fight wid her sutime soon)... My friends have started callin me a "peacemaker' (but hey..i dnt knw how to make 'peas'!!!!;))...they rest assured that as long as i m der...there will be peace....YA RITE!!!!

 

This evening, i had a fight wid my bro n his friend..his friend must think i m a maniac..he must think that i m a volcano that erupts as soon as sumone talks to me...(really scared the poor guy today man!!!:))....dunno wat trigerred me...but i can excuse the incident...as i have not gotten real angry for a long time now...(i have really taken control over my anger i believe....the frequency of such anger bouts has reduced)...n i told him sorry too...but havent told my bro sorry...well...he knws me well...so chalta hai...

 

But...

The only reason i try to make/keep peace all the time is that there are neway so many troubles in life...too many thngs at home...n in life in general... so i feel that there is no need to bring in extra worries unnecessarily...i believe i shud try to see teh gud in thngs and ppl arnd me...for the selfish reason that i dnt want to be upset over trivial matters...n so i jus try to overlook troublesome 'paths'...

 

but that doesnt mean that i wont oppose...or fight or wont make anyone feel bad...coz i m not very good girl...m nasty..n can be bad wen i jus lose the control in a jiffy...so BEWARE....

 

dishoom dishoom anyone????