Whenever i m having fun..sumwer i feel bad that i m having fun...n feel that i m not entitled to be happy...

Wenever i see a guy in luv with a girl but she doesnt luv her back..it makes me feel bad...

If two ppl are in luv..n if its one of their bday...the other HAS to..out of obligation...give a very expensive gift...it makes me feell bad that the gift is given as a mere oibligation...if a less expensive gift is given...u dnt love the person enuf!

 

is it better to have no as an answer or is it better to have no answer at all???

is it better to not know the answer n live in the illusion of a false hope or is it better to just know the fact that the answer is no?

 

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these days i m spending time doin only one thing as such n that is studying(of course i do the necessary thngs like eating sleepin 6-7 hrs, reading...) but m not doin nayhtng else worth mentioning...i dnt even get tiem to talk to frnds...n i catch up wid my parents at nite..n at that time too i m more than sleepy..

but the point is...i wonder sumtimes...y m i spending a significant amount of my time in studies? is it worth losing out on other things?...but i realsied that i enjoy this so called 'stressed out' life where i have no time to do thngs i wud have otherwise luved to...i enjoy solving the conundrums (one new word i learnt;) ), enjoy learning new words..n best of all..enjoy laughing at the silliest things...as this is wat a frnd  of mine n me do at the library.... we laugh our guts out at the silliest of jokes...but i enjy that...mayeb sumone who hears our conversation sumtime will think 'these ppl? mBA's? haha! but who cares...

wen i have fun in such times i dnt feel bad..

dunno...only sutimes wen i m having fun..wen i m having 'privileged' fun that i feel bad.

 

My latest fav song... PLZZ lissen to it at least 49 times...it is cfrom teh movie 'doli sajake rakhna'  'kissa hum likhenge dil e bekarar ka..' n tell me how u like it.